Agony perhaps:
1. I do not see how you used me, and hid it so well
So I hardly fell, for you of course
I used to hang on every word you would say
Knowing all the little games you would play
I thought there would be a new lie everyday
I thought I meant something
I guess it was nothing
It feels like someone taking a knife to your heart, soul & pride
If this is your love, I never want it again
You cheat, use & abuse
All because you lied
But it was me who always cried
You called me baby, I would reply maybe
I misjudged you, I am sorry
Two years got wasted on someone like you
This love must have been tainted
2. All day I sit in my room with nothing else to do
But sit and think of you
I thought you would always love me
You said you would stay
Now it is over
So now I can sit and think of you
I get my knife and slit my wrist
Deep enough to bleed for a long time
After I do it I feel better
But I know deep down it will not change anything
I wish it was not over
I wish it was not through
I wish you were not the one who broke my heart
I have so many scars
On my hands and on my arms
But no cuts and scars can bring you back to me.
3. I lived in a world full of fears
A world full of tears
Your temper it would fly
Your fists would make me cry
You left me beaten and battered
My life all but shattered
So many bruises, black and blue
People would ask, but no one knew
Broken bones, busted lips
I am sorry, I slipped
Each time you would promise, but never again
Like a fool I would let you back in
Once again you would scream and yell
Making my life a living hell
Then came the day I died
Time and time again you lied
They finally locked you away
With your life one day you will pay
I was beaten and battered
Now my memory is all that mattered.
-chiq signs off-
